Showing posts with label Really sad. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Really sad. Show all posts

Tuesday, 26 April 2016

I'm terrified

Things have been going well between Jay and me.
We been in a second date , and I feel so good when I am with him .
But sometimes the silliest thing makes me think that everything will go wrong and then I'll just be shattered in pieces.
The worst part is that I like him way more than I ever liked anyone before.
I don't even know why I have doubts when he said he's not having second thoughts , and he's more real with me than anyone has been before.
I have doubts in myself , that's it.
I don't feel good enough to keep him , all I have to offer are nice feelings and good intentions .
I'm so freaking scared , I wish I wasn't scared , I wish I didn't had doubts in myself.
I don't want him to just be an entry more on my blog , another sad episode...
I haven't been this scared in a long time.

Monday, 4 April 2016

Jay

I meet a guy at work i really like
We'll call him Jay .
I told I like him we talk on whatsapp and work together sometimes.
He said he likes me and I told him that I like him too , but I feel like , how could he like me ?
I feel awkward and I feel fat and ugly.
I haven't seen him outside of work ,he said it could be arranged but I don't think is going to happen , I don't think he will go out with me.
Why would he ?