Arre left me

I'm so lost.
The day I met Arre seems so far away but still I can't forget  , and the memory of me seems so different from who I am today.
I was a girl with butterflies in her stomach , today I'm the girl with scratches in her arms and tears in her eyes that can't get herself to move on.

He left me because I was clingy...I got clingy because I felt him slipping away from me...I needed him and he left me.
I was really scared of losing him because I never had something so good before in my whole life , so I held on tight.

He said I was his everything , how could he do this to me ?
I guess everyone lies.

I wasn't even clingy all the time , i just got insecure when he stopped replying , he was in pain and i couldn't do anything to help him.
I felt so impotent.

It didn't make any sense and it still doesn't make any sense now.
After all the heavy words he used , like saying that he loved me , that he couldn't live without me , all the promises . He made me feel...like...i was special...

But I was not.
I was not special for him...and I'm not special for anyone.

The truth is that I'm quite worthless ,and easily replaced.