My dad

I can feel his dissapointment.
His little girl has grown to be a lazy nobody.

I know it , I know I should be doing stuff , studying , finding a job...
I can't find my motivation.

It hurts me to dissapoint my dad , the only person I have in the world.
But I don't want to do anything.

I didn't even ask to be alive...I just don't get what the freacking point is .
I don't want to go anywhere or do anything.

I am just alive because I am a coward , and I'm so tired.

And I would never tell him how I feel because he tries so hard to make me happy and look after me , that I'd be terrible if he knew I'm not really happy.