I'll always be alone

I'll always be alone.
I know now , I can see the pattern.

They come around they see me , use me , lie to me , they use me for a while to feel good about themselves .
I put people in a pedestal , and sooner after they reliase that they don't need me.

Why be with a caterpillar when you are already a butterfly , right ?

They get enfatuated with me but when they get to know me and they realise that I'm not what they expected .

I had been screwed over before , obviously...but never as fucked up as when Arre left.
He was special to me , the kind of special you can look at forever and never get bored.
And it's not only that , but since Arre left , nothing is the same...

I see people with different eyes...

Where before I saw love now I see lies , where I used to see hope now I see distrust.

If he could lie to me like that why wouldn't others ?
If i left him know that he was my everything and he left me anyway , why wouldn't others ?

My best is not good enough , I'm not good enough...
I always regret fucking up and losing my chance...I'm a fucking fuck up.